Fog swirls around my soul. Cobwebs replace clarity of thought. Shadows threaten my heart as pain continues with a vengeance.
And so the question remains . . . how will I respond?
Will I give in? Will I waste my day and chalk it up to ‘doing the best I can’ in the midst of pain? Or maybe sink into that place of despair, despondency that I detest? Allow myself to be covered with clouds of concern and weakness?
Or will I stand my ground against the enemy? Run to the God who promised to do battle on behalf of His people as their enemies readied to attack: Jehoshaphat was afraid and turned his attention to seek the LORD . . . gathered all Judah together to seek help from the LORD . . . and prayed . . . Then in the midst of the assembly the Spirit of the LORD came upon Jahaziel who said . . . thus says the LORD to you, ‘Do not fear or be dismayed . . . for the battle is not yours but God’s . . . stand and see the salvation of the LORD on your behalf . . . for the LORD is with you.’ 2 Chronicles 20:3-17
Yes, in this battle of mine, I will beg for God’s help. Stop struggling and pause to remember I am God’s child and all of my life is His. Offer praises for all God is. Lift up gratitude for all of God’s gifts, even the gift of pain and all the ways it deepens my relationship with my Lord. Acquiesce unto the pain that He has chosen not to remove and ask that it be a point of victory.
I will ask God to help me rise above my human frailties and walk in His strength. And just as the summit of the mountain below seems to be rising through the clouds that cover most of its terrain, surely my soul is rising into God’s presence.
Oh friend, how I pray you find your way through whatever fog surrounds you into the strong arms of our LORD. And as you are able to trust and rest in God’s faithfulness, may you find yourself rising above whatever is threatening to consume you.
For the battle and the victory are the Lord’s . . . .